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Finally Getting to See a Gender Therapist

by | Jul 20, 2022 | My Journey | 0 comments

An image of a woman in the dark, used as representation of someone hiding before coming out as transgender.

Finally Getting to See a Gender Therapist

 Hey everyone! I know it’s been a while, but this journey continues to take some crazy turns!

Not only have a started a new job with an amazing company, but I’m going on a trip to a work summit next week. My first one ever and I’ll be meeting everyone in person. I’m incredibly excited, but nervous..

I really wish I was meeting everyone as my true self however. But it looks as though that’s set to change. I’ve been struggling to find anyone to actually help me, especially considering I don’t have any kind of a semblance of potential support in my day to day life. I found an incredible non-profit that is going to help me with everything. They’ve actually already set me up with a gender therapist that I have an appointment with tomorrow. That’s so crazy and it happened so fast. But I am ridiculously nervous about the session.

To have someone I can finally openly talk to about everything regarding being transgender and getting the ball rolling, it’s exciting and scary. I have so many negative thoughts and questions because my experience with any other “therapists” have not gone well and have not tried to help me at all. They all kept just trying to prolong the time to get through the sessions. Now I’m worried, what if they tell me that everything I’ve felt and wanted for the majority of my life is all wrong, what if it’s not real. I don’t know how to process even the thought of that.

I’ve spent so much time doing my best to prepare myself to finally accept being happy and being me and preparing for all the loss that’s to come that I don’t know how I would cope with that. Hopefully I’m just doing my usual overthinking everything and it’s all going to be fine and my next post is about what’s coming next. Anyway, wish me luck, and I’ll talk to ya’ll soon!

 

Until next time..

 

X -Mandie- X

Written by Amanda Cook

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